Thank you all for your kinds words and thoughts. This has been very difficult for me. The morning of our test I was so sure that the test would be positive. My breasts were becoming more swollen and sore by the day and I had so many food aversions. When we got home I went out to clean Avery's headstone and that is when I got the call from Dr. D. He said that my numbers were going down. They had done a pregnancy test on Tuesday when I had sent my blood to Vegas and that pregnancy test came back positive (the HCG level was 10, anything over 5 is positive). He said he was very hopeful but then our second HCG level came back as an 8. He told me to stop all of my injections and pills and just allow the miscarriage to progress. As of today I have not seen any bleeding but am having stronger cramping. I am still having many pregnancy symptoms too so I am guessing my numbers are still trying to go down. I will do another blood test on Wednesday to check the numbers. I am hoping that things progress normally and I don't have to have any kind of medical intervention.
I am not going to lie, I am depressed, I am bitter and I don't feel like seeing or talking to anyone. I am dreading going back to work tomorrow, I am not really ready to face anyone. I just don't understand why this keeps happening to us. I may never know why. So for now I will just try to deal with it the best I can.