Saturday, May 9, 2009

Mother's Day

I have decided that for the rest of my life Mother's Day is going to be a difficult day for me. I will always remember the little one that first made me a mother. Yes, I am a mom and proud to be one! But I am a mom with empty arms. Without a child to hold and to teach right from wrong. Hopefully someday I will have a child to hold and to teach and to love. But this Mother's Day I am reminded of the title I was given but also of what is missing. To Avery: I miss you sweetie! I am so proud to be your mom and I thank my Heavenly Father every day for you. I will never forget you and I will always be your biggest fan! I love you!

Now, instead of focusing on the hurt, I have decided to focus on how blessed I am to have such an amazing mom... and an amazing friend! As I have gotten older my mom and I have become very close. I don't know what I would do without her. She is always there for me, no matter what. She supports me and she gives advice. She trusts me and she listens to my ramblings ( I do that a lot). She has raised 4 great kids and is the best grandma to her 7 grandkids. No one ever has anything bad to say about her. She is sweet and funny and extremely beautiful. I am proud when people tell me how much I look like her!

She has become my closest ally and someone I know I can always turn to. I can always talk to her about Avery and I know that she misses her just as much as I do. I couldn't ask for a better mom. My only regret is that I take her for granted. I owe her so much. She does so much for me and never expects anything in return. I know that my entire family would agree with me when I say that we are all extremely blessed to have her in our lives.
Happy Mother's Day! I truly hope that today, and every other day, you realize what a huge inspiration you are to me. You have been an amazing mom and I appreciate all that you do. I know that there is no way that I could have survived the past couple of years without you. Your faith and your strength makes me want to be a better person. I look up to you in so many ways. I am so proud to be your daughter and your friend. You are beautiful inside and out and everyone around you sees it, even when you don't.
I owe you so much and don't even know how I can thank you enough for all that you have done for me and for my family. Avery is so lucky to have you as her grandma and I am so lucky to have you as my mom. I hope that someday I can be the mother to my kids that you have been to me and my siblings. Mom, I hope that you know that I love you and I will always love you! Most of all, I hope that you feel that love, not only today but everyday.
Thank you for being such a great mom, for putting up with me and all my issues and especially for just being you.
I love you so much!
Love, Candi

And to all of the other moms in my life, my grandmothers, my mother-in-law, my sister and sisters-in-law, and my friends; you all inspire me every day. I love you all and hope that you know how much I appreciate you and all that you do!

Our first picture together! (that's me in her tummy) Sorry it's sideways!

I may get in trouble for posting this one... sorry girls but I think it's cute!


Danielle said...

Happy Mother's Day to you, Candi. I've been reading your blog since before you had Avery...and I wish you nothing but the best for the future. You are a strong woman and are an amazing mother :)

Jason and Michele said...

You really DO have a great Mom. She is such a sweet person. I hear about how wonderful she is all the time from my own mother.

Good luck this week!! I'll be thinking about you!

The Schexnayders said...

Happy Mothers Day Candi! I know its probably hard to hear that but you do deserve to hear it because you are a great mom and Avery is lucky to have you. I think this post is a great tribute to our Mom. She is a great woman and I wouldnt give her up for the world. Thanks for posting those fun pictures... they brought back memories ( I like the photo of my rear end... thats funny)