Thursday, September 30, 2010

Gummi Bear!!!

I was lucky enough to see our Peanut again today!  Everything looks great! My fluid levels are good and the baby is growing perfectly!  Heartbeat is measuring at 174 bpm and I was able to see our baby moving her arms and legs!!  She is also measuring 1 inch long!  Dr. S seems very pleased with our progress but is still concerned about getting us past 12 weeks.  Today I am 9 weeks 2 days so I have a little under 3 weeks before we hit that 12 week mark and I may drive myself crazy with nerves before then! 
Dr. S also tried to get me a 3D pic but the baby kind of looked like a bumpy blob... but like Dr. S said, it's a beautiful blob and it's my blob!!  I personally think the baby looks like a Gummi Bear at this point!  So cute! 
At my appointment today they took down all of my history and gave me books, pamphlets and other info on pregnancy.  I thought for sure when they handed me that bag this pregnancy would feel more real, but it didn't.  I still have to pinch myself multiple times a day just to see if I am dreaming.  Even watching our baby move around on the screen seemed so unreal to me.  I wish Skeet could have been there.  He has been out of town for our last 3 ultrasounds.  I go back in two weeks for our last ultrasound for a while and he just HAS to be there!!  I will reschedule that appointment over and over if I have to, just so that he can be there and experience it.  Our appt. is currently on 10/14, the day after Avery's birthday.  I think I might try to change it to her birthday.  It might be something special that Skeet and I do together that day since we have to have her birthday party the day before so that my parents can participate.  (They are going to Philly to visit my sister and her family.. I am sooo jealous!) 
As far as pregnancy symptoms go I am still nauseous on a daily basis but it is bearable. I even gained some of the weight I had lost back because I have been able to eat more than I could the first few weeks.  Actually, it was kind of sad to see how much I had gained back but as long as I don't get too far beyond my pre pregnancy weight too quickly, I think I can handle it.  I can't button up most of my pants at this point and will be pulling out the belly bands if I can find them this weekend.  I may have to start shopping for a new bra as well.  Tums have become my best friend because just about everything gives me heartburn... even water at times.  Luckily the Tums are working (they didn't when I was pregnant with Avery) and I hope that they will continue to. 
Right now I think I am mostly worried about whether or not this baby is healthy.  If he has OI type II like Avery, there is nothing we can do about it but I still pray every day that she is healthy and that we will get to keep him.  I figured it out and we will find out one way or the other, right before Christmas.  Oh I hope we have a GREAT Christmas this year! 

So there you have my pregnancy rant... I will try to post again next week but my next appt is not for another 2 weeks so I may not have much to report!

Monday, September 27, 2010

7 years!!

Today Skeet and I celebrate our 7th anniversary!  7 years has gone by so quickly but so much has happened!  We got married at a beautiful little venue in Enoch called Willow Glen Inn.  The trees at this place are amazing! It was a beautiful day, so green and warm!  I look back now and think of how naive I was back then.  Never would I have ever believed that we would suffer from infertility, or that we would have to spend tens of thousands of dollars to get pregnant with our first child, only to have to say goodbye and bury her only months later.  A lot of marriages wouldn't have survived what we have been through but our marriage is stronger than ever.  For a couple that met on a blind date and didn't even know each other a year before they got married, we have a love, and a marriage, stronger than most I have known.  I am so thankful, everyday, for Skeet and the love and support that I get from him on a daily basis.  He is my rock and my best friend.  I look forward to spending the rest of my life loving him.  He is going to be an amazing dad! I can't believe that when we celebrate our next anniversary we will have a little baby to celebrate with! How awesome is that?
I love you Skeet! More today than ever and even when I think it's impossible you find ways to make me love you more.  Happy Anniversary baby! You are the BEST!!!

Wednesday, September 22, 2010


Rainbow Baby is the term given to the babies that come after a loss.  It has been almost 3 years since we lost Avery and I think I needed that 3 years to fully grieve.  Today, as I was driving into town to see Dr. S for my 3rd ultrasound I looked up to see a big, beautiful rainbow.  At that instant all the anxiety I was having about the appointment disappeared.  It was almost like someone was telling me not to worry, that my rainbow baby was okay. 

Baby Bean has officially graduated to a Peanut!!  He/She is measuring right on at 8 wks 1 day (or 1.69 cm) and has a heartbeat of 170 bpm.  My fluid levels looked great today and Peanut is starting to look more like something each week!  I have lost another 3 pounds which brings my total weight loss to 11 pounds.  I have been eating more because I haven't felt quite as sick since Dr. S lowered my Metformin dose from 1500 mg to 1000 mg daily.  It has made a huge difference.  I still feel nauseous most of the day but I can at least eat without feeling like I am going to die!  As of today I have only thrown up once which is huge for me because I fight back the urge many times a day.  I hate throwing up... you have no idea how much.  So when I feel it coming on I breathe through it and try to think of something else and it usually works... except for that one time. 

At our first ultrasound Dr. S said that I had ovulated from my left side, but today after I insisted he check my right tube (I know I am too paranoid) he said that I in fact, ovulated from the right side.  My ovary on that side is huge and swollen and it really hurt when he pushed on it.  Actually it still hurts. 

Another thing that was brought up at this scan was that Dr. S wants me to go to St. George for a detailed scan at around 18 weeks to make sure this baby doesn't have any of the genetic problems we ran into with Miss Avery.  I can't believe I have to wait another 10 weeks to know if this baby is healthy or not.  I guess all I can do is keep praying and try to stay positive.  At least I don't have to see Dr. G because I heard a rumor he's not around anymore... Yay!!  I go back to Dr. S next week for my first OB appointment and another scan.

I want to thank everyone for  your encouraging words and especially for your prayers.  It means so much to us that there are so many out there praying for our peanut!! 

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

7 Weeks

I went in today for my second ultrasound.  Our bean has grown and is measuring at exactly 7 weeks.  It has a heartbeat still (whew), 132 bpm.  Dr. S said that everything looked okay except that the fluid around the baby is low, which is a cause for concern this early on.  He said that there isn't really anything I can do so I will go back in next week for another ultrasound to check on our bean.  I guess all we can do now is pray... which is what I have been doing constantly since I got the first positive pregnancy test. 
I have been really, really nauseous and tired along with some other symptoms that I won't discuss here!  Today I finally asked for some phenegren gel (sp?). I am not sure it's going to work cause it didn't with Avery but I will try it anyway.  I have lost almost 8 pounds since I found out so I am thinking I need to be eating a little bit more and the only way I can do that is to stop feeling so sick all the time (which, don't get me wrong, I am totally, 100% grateful for!!). 
One of these days I will write down the story of the first couple of days of this pregnancy but for now I was just hoping that I could ask for you to pray again for our baby bean, that it will continue to grow and be healthy and that the fluid issue will resolve itself.  Thank you!!

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

You are NOT going to believe this!

(Kate this picture was taken just for you!!  Sorry I didn't have any granite for a background!)

I know the picture isn't great but yep... that's right!  We're pregnant!  It is really early, I shouldn't be spreading the news just yet cause there is still a chance I might have to take it back.  It's actually really stupid of me to be telling anyone just yet, I hope I don't jinx myself but I just can't hold it in any longer!  Today we were able to see our little bean's heartbeat and it was AMAZING!! 
Just a quick recap of how this happened... well let's just say it was a COMPLETE surprise!  I wasn't taking anything, I wasn't tracking anything, and I definitely wasn't expecting anything like this.  I feel so blessed.  I have just become one of those woman that I have always envied and I am loving every minute!  We are around 6 weeks along, which puts us due around the first of May. Dr. S says I am not out of the woods yet, which I totally get, am I ever really out of the woods? We are going back in next week for another ultrasound to check on little bean.  I hope that it's okay if I ask anyone who reads this to pray for our little bean, that it will continue to grow into a healthy baby.  We would appreciate any help we can get!  Thank you!

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Mommy Models time again!!

This year I was lucky enough to do Mommy Models with my mom and my sister! I love how the pictures turned out and I LOVE Emily!!!  Go here to vote! Make sure you click on "Vote Here" and then vote for #3 or #7.