Wednesday, January 27, 2010


Well it was a long day yesterday but I am home and healing nicely, or at least I think so.  The pain isn't too bad as long as I don't move.  I have 6 incisions all around my abdomen and of course my shoulder is killing me from the gas that they blew me up with for surgery. 
The gallbladder sugery went very smoothly and so did the other two. Dr. S found only 2 small spots of endometriosis and a large cyst growing on one of my ovaries (I am sure he told me which one but I don't remember now... I was so out of it).  He said the diathermy went well, he did 4 punctures but had to cauterize a little longer than he normally would have because of how swollen my ovaries are from the PCOS. I am going to have Dr. S send the results to Dr. D just so that he can see for himself that endometriosis has nothing to do with my egg quality.  There was one tiny spot on one ovary and the rest was further from the ovaries and closer to the uterus.  Also, my remainig tube looked healthy. 
I won't know for a couple of months if the diathermy will work and won't know how not having a gallbladder will effect me for another couple of weeks.  From the looks of it though I am pretty sure I will be much better in a few days.  I appreciate everyone's thoughts and prayers, I am so lucky to have such an amazing support system. 
Well I am drugged up on some heavy stuff and am sure I have 20+ spelling mistakes so I will be going now.  Thank you again for everyone that is cheering us on!  Love you!!

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

It's Happening!

Today is the big day and I have to admit I am really nervous.  I have had a couple of laparoscopic surgeries before but never this many incisions.  I think I can handle the pain... my worries are more about whether or not I will feel better after my gallbladder is out.  I hope that I can still eat like a normal person after it is out.  I look forward to being able to have some yummy buttered popcorn at the movie and not suffer for hours afterward.  I am also worried that I am putting too much hope into the diathermy.  I want so badly for it to make some kind of difference and I can't wait to start seeing the results.  What if this could be it??  Wouldn't that be so amazing?  And if it works for me that means it could work for someone else and that would be so great!! 
I don't have to be to the hospital until 11:15 and I haven't eaten since 8 last night so I am a little hungry and the nerves aren't helping that.  I guess I should go shower and try to keep my mind off of what could go wrong!!  Typical me!  Wish me luck!

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Thank you Mari and Beckie... again

Mari posted Avery's song to a slideshow on her blog and I LOVE it!!  There are some pictures in there that I haven't even seen.  My sister had sent them to her and I had no idea they even existed.  Thank you Mari and Beckie.  You gave me a gift that I will cherish the rest of my life.  Please visit this link and watch.  It is sooo sweet!

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Going under the knife

I don't have time to do a long post but I wanted to just post that I will be having surgery on January 26th.  I am going to have my gallbladder removed, have my endometriosis lasered, and have the ovarian diathermy done on my ovaries.  I am a little bit nervous about the insurance part of it but will keep praying that the majority of the procedure will be covered.  I am expecting to only be out of work and school for 3 or 4 days and back to my marathon training within a couple of weeks.  I hope it doesn't put me too far behind.  I am trying to not get my hopes up but you all know that my dream is for this procedure to work miracles on my messed up body and that Skeet and I will be able to get pregnant the good old fashioned way or even with a simple IUI.  Dr. S is excited about the procedure but I am getting the impression that he still thinks we will have to do IVF.  I really wish we could prove him and Dr. D wrong.  So that's it... it's going to happen, just like I wanted.  I hope I don't regret it!!

Friday, January 8, 2010

Finally... some news

Yesterday I finally got the long awaited call from Dr. S.  I was able to ask him some questions that had been bugging me for the past couple weeks since my HIDA scan to check my gallbladder.  I will be seeing a general surgeon next week to double check the HIDA scan results (they looked okay but the pain I had during the scan might be cause for concern).  If I do in fact need to get my gallbladder taken out then we will probably wait until around spring break and do it then so that I don't have to miss as much school (the recovery time is much longer for this).  If the surgeon says that my gallbladder looks fine, then I will schedule a diagnostic laparoscopy with Dr. S as soon as possible.  During this procedure Dr. S will look for and "zap" any areas that are affected by endometriosis as well as perform the Ovarian Diathermy that I have been wanting for the past few months.  He seems confident that my insurance will cover most of the procedure if we do it this way.  I sure hope so.  I don't know what we would do if we got stuck with a medical bill of $7000.

In other news... (giggle).... I have decided to run a half marathon.  I have made this decision before and it never got very far but this time I feel a lot better about it.  I have been running on the treadmill a few times a week and am starting to get the hang of it.  As long as I can keep my shin splints under control I think I will be able to successfully train for and complete the 13 miles required.  I think my biggest motivation is losing some weight.  I know that Dr. S told me not to, but he doesn't know what I see when I look in the mirror... I can't live with myself looking this way.  I gained quite a bit over the holiday so my goal has gone from 10 pounds to 15 pounds.  I think I am going to add some tickers to my blog.  I think that if I have to hold myself accountable for the weightloss I will be better at eating right and taking care of myself. 

School has started up again and I am currently taking only 4 credit hours (one class).  I am also still volunteering at the hospital.  I believe that soon I will be able to change departments if I want to and I know I will be cutting back hours and going from 8 to 4 a week.  I am going back and forth on whether or not I should transfer over to Labor and Delivery.  I know it would be extremely hard for me to spend 4 hours a week around brand new babies and expectant mothers but I would have a better opportunity to watch someone doing ultrasounds in that department than the one I am in.  I don't know... we'll see. 

I hope everyone had a great Christmas and wish everyone the best in the New Year.  I hope some good things happen this year...

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

White Roses

Still haven't spoken with Dr. S... but I thought I should share this... a beautiful idea.

The White Roses
All the earth's mothers were gathered together at God's garden of flowers. Those beautiful budding spirits, who would someday come to earth, were nurtured and tended in the garden. A loving Father spoke to the mothers. "See the works of my hands, someday you will be the mothers to these radiant spirits." the garden glowed with the mixture of all kinds and colors. "Choose ye," He said. Now in the east corner of the garden, pure white roses stood as sentinels. They were not so colorful as the rest, but glowed with a kind of purity which set them apart. One by one, the mothers stepped forward. "I want the blue-eyed, curly haired one who will grow to maturity and be a mother in Zion." Yet another chose a brown-eyed, brown haired boy, full of life and love who would someday be a prince in a grand country. The garden buzzed with excitement as the others chose their own special spirits, they whom they would soon welcome into the warmth and love of an earthly home. Once again the loving Father spoke,"But who will take the white roses, the ones in the east corner of the garden? These will return to me in purity and goodness; they will not stay long in your home, for I must bring them back to my garden for they belong with me, but they will gain bodies as was planned. You will miss them and long for them, but I will personally care for them." "No, not I," many said in unison. "I could not bear to give one back so soon." "Nor I." said others. "We will take those who will remain and grow to maturity and live long lives." The loving Father looked out across the multitude of mothers with a longing in his eyes for someone to step forward. But there was only silence. Then He said, "See the most pure and perfect of all the white ones? I chose Him. He will go down and be a sacrifice for all mankind. He will be scorned, mocked, and crucified. He is mine own. Will not anyone choose like unto Him?" A few mothers stepped forward. "Yes, Lord, I will." Then another, and, "I as well," "Yes, we will Lord."
Soon all the pure white roses were taken, and they rejoiced in the choices of their mothers. The Father spoke again,"Oh, blessed are you who chose the white roses, for your pain will be a heavy cross to bear, but your joy will be exceeding beyond anything you can understand at this time." The white ones embraced their mothers, and so full was their purity and love that it
filled their souls with such endearment. Each mother knew they could endure the task. The greatest of all the white ones, gathered them as a hen gathers her chicks, and the outpouring of love surrounded each mother and child, consuming all the white ones as He prepared them for their task. And each mother who bore the weight of the White Rose, would feel the overwhelming love of God, as the all shouted, "Thy will be done."