Rainbow Baby is the term given to the babies that come after a loss. It has been almost 3 years since we lost Avery and I think I needed that 3 years to fully grieve. Today, as I was driving into town to see Dr. S for my 3rd ultrasound I looked up to see a big, beautiful rainbow. At that instant all the anxiety I was having about the appointment disappeared. It was almost like someone was telling me not to worry, that my rainbow baby was okay.
Baby Bean has officially graduated to a Peanut!! He/She is measuring right on at 8 wks 1 day (or 1.69 cm) and has a heartbeat of 170 bpm. My fluid levels looked great today and Peanut is starting to look more like something each week! I have lost another 3 pounds which brings my total weight loss to 11 pounds. I have been eating more because I haven't felt quite as sick since Dr. S lowered my Metformin dose from 1500 mg to 1000 mg daily. It has made a huge difference. I still feel nauseous most of the day but I can at least eat without feeling like I am going to die! As of today I have only thrown up once which is huge for me because I fight back the urge many times a day. I hate throwing up... you have no idea how much. So when I feel it coming on I breathe through it and try to think of something else and it usually works... except for that one time.
At our first ultrasound Dr. S said that I had ovulated from my left side, but today after I insisted he check my right tube (I know I am too paranoid) he said that I in fact, ovulated from the right side. My ovary on that side is huge and swollen and it really hurt when he pushed on it. Actually it still hurts.
Another thing that was brought up at this scan was that Dr. S wants me to go to St. George for a detailed scan at around 18 weeks to make sure this baby doesn't have any of the genetic problems we ran into with Miss Avery. I can't believe I have to wait another 10 weeks to know if this baby is healthy or not. I guess all I can do is keep praying and try to stay positive. At least I don't have to see Dr. G because I heard a rumor he's not around anymore... Yay!! I go back to Dr. S next week for my first OB appointment and another scan.
I want to thank everyone for your encouraging words and especially for your prayers. It means so much to us that there are so many out there praying for our peanut!!