Tuesday, May 12, 2009

It's here!

We we will be leaving today for Vegas and I will not be on the computer again until after we get home. I can't believe it's here already! Every hour it gets closer I get more nervous and a little sick to my stomach. I am trying to stay positive but for some reason it is much easier for me to imagine the worst possible scenario than it is for me to imagine the best. I hope that it's not some kind of intuition about how things will turn out. I want so badly to believe that Heavenly Father will answer my prayers and bless us with a healthy child, however I know that He has a plan for us and if a child is not part of our plan right now then that is just the way it will be. Just thinking about that breaks my heart though. My whole life revolves around trying to have a child... it's all I think about (when I am not thinking about Avery). I know it sounds pretty pathetic but seriously, I want nothing more than to have a healthy child of my own and I would give up every material thing I have if I could just have this one wish. If only there was something I could do to ensure that this FET be a success.

I want to take a minute to again thank an anonymous stranger who made this FET possible. I still don't know who you are but I can't thank you enough. I hope that someday I can repay you for your generosity and kindness. You are truly and angel!

And of course, to all of you who have been praying for us, THANK YOU! We are so thankful for your love and support. I am so glad that I chose to tell everyone about this FET rather than keep it a secret. You all give me strength to get through every day and I don't think I could have done it without you. I hope that you will continue to keep us, our embryos, and our doctor in your prayers. We need all of the help that we can get!! I love you all and I will post as soon as I can to let you know how it all went.

Tomorrow I will try to relax as much as possible. I have a massage scheduled (thanks MOM!) in the morning and a day of sunning by the pool and non-alcoholic frozen beverages all day long. Our FET is scheduled for 11:30 a.m. Thursday morning. We will need to be there at 11:00 and I will need to have a full bladder. You know of all the things that I am required to do to prepare for the FET... the full bladder is the worst part. Sometimes if they are running behind they will make you sit there for an hour or more with your bladder about to explode! Then they start pushing on your stomach to get a clear ultrasound picture and it honestly feels like torture!! That Dr. D is a very brave man for hanging out in that area while full bladders are being poked and prodded! However, it is quite amazing to watch on that ultrasound screen and the doctor let's those little embryos go inside of your uterus. How many people get to watch themselves get pregnant? It is pretty amazing. As I watch that tiny glowing dot on the screen I am silently praying for them to stick and hold tight!!

Thank you again, for everything! I will let you know how it goes on Thursday when we get home!! Wish us luck!

18 comments:

Amy Jo said...

I'll be on pins and needles waiting for your return. I had no idea that you get to watch the whole procedure. Too cool. Get lots of sun, rest and relaxation! And best of luck to you!

Jamie said...

Found your site through a good friend and have been praying for you ever since. Best wishes!!!

The Schexnayders said...

Ahh! I cant believe its here as well. Its so hard for me to be far away and not there to give you a hug or just a shoulder to lean on. I actually have a very good feeling about this one. We are ALL praying for you and I know God hears our prayers. Love you and ENJOY your day of pampering (Im so jealous)

TREVOR AND MINDY SAVAGE said...

Good luck and best wishes! My thoughts and prayers are with you guys. Hope all goes well!!

Rae said...

Good luck Candi! I'll be praying for you and your embies! Take it easy and relax afterwards! I layed down the day of my transfer and took it easy the next couple days. And, I ate fresh pineapple. I read that it helps, so I did it. :) I look forward to hearing how everything went!

Lisa said...

Good Luck! I will be praying for you and thinking about you on Thursday. This FET is going to work, stay positive. Your one wish of having a healthy baby is going to come true.

Miche said...

Thinking and praying for you. I popped over here bc I knew this day was coming soon. Have a safe trip and know that there are many cheering for you :)

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Jenny said...

Here's hoping all will go well. We'll be praying for you and everyone involved. Have fun in Vegas relaxing by the pool, I'm jealous!

Leslie said...

Good luck Candi! I will be thinking of you and Skeet. Enjoy your time away and try to relax! I know easier said than done :)

Jennifer said...

Lots and lots of prayers are winging your way. I'll keep you guys in my thoughts especially Thursday.

Lindsay-Weaver said...

I'm so excited for you guys! I can't believe it's here already. Good luck! I'll be thinking of you guys!

Never forgetting Gregory said...

I am definitely thinking about you. I'm so glad the time has come and that you will get to finally be in the 2WW again. I wish you all the best.

Henrie Fam said...

All our prayers are with you Candi! Love you.

Eva said...

Thinking about you!! I am hoping you enjoy every minute of relaxation you get in Vegas and praying for a successful transfer!!! Justthink...you will be pg tomorrow! Stick lil embies stick!

Mandy said...

Wow it seems like the time has gone fast. I am so excited for you. Praying that everything turns out the way you want. Best Wishes!!!

Jason and Michele said...

Good luck and try to have some fun! You'll be in my prayers!

Jen M said...

Your thoughts bring back so many emotions. The waiting and the unknown physically hurts. At least the hope feels pretty great. Praying for you guys.

Courtney said...

Best of luck. Ours is coming up in a little less than a month. I will anxiously await to here about your results.

*hugs*
Sending lots of sticky vibes