Thank you, first off, to everyone that has been praying for us. I guess God's plan did not include us having a child at this time. As I am typing this I am experiencing my first miscarriage ever. I am devastated but know that I can get through this.
At my appointment on Thursday Dr. Sanders saw a sac but still no baby. It was determined that I had a blighted ovum or what they now call an early pregnancy failure. The embryo implanted but a baby never started to develop. I was given the choice of waiting for a miscarriage to occur on its own, which could have taken up to 5 more weeks, or I could induce a miscarriage. I decided to get it over with and started the process last night. It has been painful but I take comfort in knowing that there was never a baby. So yes, I am losing a pregnancy, but at least I know I am not losing another baby.
We will speak with our Dr. in Las Vegas after I have recovered and will discuss our options for the future. I am trying not to think about it right now, I don't know if I am ready to go through all this again just yet.
In the mean time I will be praying that the Lord will help me to get through every day. The He will keep me from breaking down every time I am in the presence of a pregnant woman or a sweet little baby. I have no idea how I will cope with that but I don't think I have a choice. Especially because I have two sisters-in-law that are expecting. I want to be happy for them but that doesn't keep my heart from aching.
Avery's 1st birthday is quickly approaching and I think I need to focus on getting through that in one piece. Thank you again for your prayers.