Monday, September 8, 2008

Not Good at all

Well I guess that's it... my number only went to 236. That number is about 2000 less than what I was hoping for. I am devestated. I have no clue what to do now... I don't know if I can take any more disappointment and now I get to watch every one around me have babies. I get to sit by and wonder why I can't. I am so lost right now.

15 comments:

How Life Is Measured said...

Oh Candi,
I'm so sorry to hear this. I'm so sorry. I will be praying for you and that God has some sort of plan for your family.
I'm thinking of you!
Cat

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry to hear that news. We are praying in NC.
Nicole

Amy Jo said...

Candi, I am so sorry. I can only imagine how you feel and wish I could be near you to comfort you. My heart breaks for you and Skeet. But, I know you have faith, and while we don't know why this is happening, we do know that God has a plan. Continued prayers your way.

Jenny said...

I am so sorry Candi, I don't know what to say to help you, but please know that I am continually thinking about you and pray that you will have comfort at this difficult time.

thepereiras said...

I'm so sorry, Candi. I've been praying for you and will continue to do so.

Tina said...

I'm so sorry to hear this. My heart goes out to you and Skeet. Keep your heads up, as hard as it may be. We're all praying for you!

amy said...

I am so so sorry. I know that you have been waiting for this for so long and have looked forward to having another baby. Nothing I can say will make it any easier but just know that there is a reason for this and you may not know why for some time but our Heavenly Father has a plan for you and Skeet. Please know that you have so many friends and family members thinking of you and praying for you and Skeet. Again I am so sorry.
I love you!
Amy

BRYAN'S YAYA said...

Candi, I know you must be devestated. I will continue to pray for you and Skeet. God has a plan for you, and you are such an amazing, strong and faithful person that it must be something very special. Keep your faith and know that many people love and care for you.

Candi
YaYa to Bryan

Jennifer said...

Candi I am sending my love and prayers. It's so hard to figure out what God has planned for us isn't it? Sending all my love.

Joellyn said...

There are no words. I'm so sorry. BBC buddy.

Jamie said...

Don't give up Candi, you are DESTINED to be a mom. Keep strong, I cannot imagine how emotionally taxing this is for you. I will continue to pray for you and Skeet!

Leslie Mortensen said...

Candi,
It is so hard to say something that might bring comfort. Sorry seems so inadequate. You know the funny thing about despair is that it brings you closer to the things in your life that mean the most. Take advantage of that and know how much the people in your life love you and your husband. We will be praying for you!
Leslie

NEILANDSHALON said...

OH SWEETIE! I AM SO INCREDIBLY SORRY- I KNOW THAT DOES NOT TAKE AWAY THE SADNESS, BUT I WILL CONTINUE TO KEEP YOU AND YOUR FAMILY IN MY PRAYERS!! PLEASE REMEMBER THAT YOU HAVE SO MANY FRIENDS AND FAMILY WHO LOVE AND SUPPORT YOU!! PLEASE CALL IF YOU NEED ASOLUTELY ANYTHING!!! I LOVE YOU!!

Charise said...

Hey Candi, I didnt know you were still posting blogs here. I had a lot of catch up reading to do (I have not cried this hard in a long time). I hope you know that Ayden and I miss you so much! I think about you every day and wish that we were going to lunch together or something. It kills me to not be there to support you while your going through this... I pray for you all of the time and feel like you deserve the best. I know you will be a better mom then me by far and I know that you will raise a child here on earth. It may be one that you give birth too or maybe one that you adopt... only God knows at this time, but you will get your chance. Listen to your Patriarchal blessing. They are true... and dont give up ok sweetie? I love all the pics you posted as well.. maybe you should skip radiology and become a photographer :) Love your sis

Anonymous said...

Candi,

It is me Lerber! I found your blog and my heart just sunk. I had no idea and along with everyone else mentioning their total sympathy to you and your situation, I too am very sorry for your trials. I don't understand why God does some of the things he does but I do know through my own trials that he has a plan for each and everyone of us. What is the most frustrating part about that plan is the part where we don't get to know, WHY!!! I am so grateful that I happened upon your blog and I love you so much!! You were always someone that I could look up to and also someone that I wanted to be like, even way back in junior high. You are still and even more absolutely gorgeous than I remember. Congats on the marriage to Skeet, I truly hope that I get to meet him some day soon. powershm23@hotmail.com. I LOVE YOU AND KEEP PRAYING! I know that if we need something and we cannot find it here in people or earthly things then GOD is our only hope. He does still work miracles. :) Heather