Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Skinny Me


I was going through some old photos yesterday and came across some that were taken when I lived in Dallas. I was so skinny back then. I know I will never look like that again, having babies and living with men will take their toll on a woman, but I would like to get as close as I can. Why does food that is bad for you have to taste so good?




I still have this outfit. I would never wear it now for many reasons, but the main reason is that I wouldn't be able to fit those pants past my knees and my spare tire would hang below the bottom of the shirt. I have to remind myself that when I looked like this I was a smoker, I worked out twice a day and went out dancing at least 2 or 3 nights a week. I ate mostly salads for lunch and skipped breakfast. My lifestyle was so very different than what it is now. However, I can't help but wish that my body still looked this way. I don't want that lifestyle back... I am way too old for that... but I want to be able to look at myself in a swim suit or even a figure hugging outfit and not be disgusted with what I see. I wish I could just love myself the way I am but when I look at photos of what I used to be, it makes it impossible.
My diet failed. It was too hard and messed with my ability to think or function properly. My school work was suffering and I was always upset that I couldn't eat normal food. I did lose 5 pounds however so I am still trying to eat good and be as active as I have time for. I think the that it is the best I can do right now.


Most of all I want my body to be as healthy as possible so that when/if we ever get pregnant again I will be healthy and I will be able to keep my child healthy (as much as is within my control).


For fun I am sharing some other photos from my days in Dallas. Most of the friends in these photos are friends from Utah. I must have only taken pictures when I had people visit me!

Kate, Shalon and me getting ready to go out on the town

Visiting my work place, I love the light effect in this pic

My sis, Me and Kate ready to go to the Yahoo Year End Party
My sis and I dressed up for Halloween ( I was a hula girl with a BIG butt)
Shalon, Kate, DJ (my little bro), me and my sis

4 comments:

Amy Jo said...

I love old photo's! But, you need to understand that you aren't fat, sister! You look great and the most important thing is to be healthy. You can be perfectly healthy and not a size 2 or 4 or whatever size you used to be. (Personally I was a size 4 in about oh...3rd grade maybe! Stop worrying about it. You look fab!!

Jason & Michele said...

I'm with Amy. Pretty sure I haven't been that small since the third grade either. haha! You're gorgeous girl!!

Danette said...

That's the figure we were all jealous of!! I am sure I could come up with some nice Halloween pics of you:) Although I am sure you don't look much different now.

NEILANDSHALON said...

YEAH---HOW FUN!! I LOVE THOSE PICTURES--THEY TOTALLY TAKE ME BACK TO "THE GOOD OLD DAYS!!" I HAVE NEVER EVER EVER SEEN YOU NOT SKINNY-- SO, GO YOU!!! YOU ALWAYS LOOK FABULOUS!!!!