Tuesday, December 7, 2010

19 Weeks

Wow! I can't believe we are 19 weeks already!  We were in our 19th week with Avery when we found out that she had a form of Skeletal Dysplasia, most likely lethal.  I am so grateful that our baby boy looks healthy.  I still miss Avery every day and wish that she could be here planning for her brother's arrival but I know she is watching over us and is happy to see her brother finally joining our family!  I have finally been able to imagine what it is going to be like to have a baby in our home.  To smell his soft skin and enjoy every second with him.  Honestly, I am a little scared, not to be a mom but to finally have this baby and then have to watch him grow up so fast!  I know that it will be amazing and I will love every second of it, but I also know how fast it goes and even with 21 weeks left in this pregnancy, I just want to stop time already!  I am loving being pregnant too.  I don't know if all women feel this way or just those of us that have struggled for so long to finally get pregnant but it's a bittersweet thing to count down the weeks.  As much as I want to meet this little boy, I can't help but wish that I could stay pregnant just a little bit longer.  That all might change once I start getting really big and uncomfortable.  But for now I am just content with marveling at my ever growing stomach and the little kicks that remind me that one of the most important people in my life is growing and living inside me.  I love this little boy so much.  I love every kick and can't get enough of just looking at my stomach.  Skeet is even getting better at making an effort to touch my stomach (pregnant stomachs have always freaked him out).  I can't wait for him to feel his son kick and move.  The change I have seen in him over the last couple of weeks is incredible and honestly I don't think that he and I have ever been happier.  This baby has been such a huge blessing to us already!  I don't feel like I deserve to be so happy!  Here is our latest update....

How far along: 19 weeks

Size of baby: Your baby weighs about 8 1/2 ounces and measures 6 inches, head to bottom — about the size of a large heirloom tomato. His arms and legs are in the right proportions to each other and the rest of his body now. His kidneys continue to make urine and the hair on his scalp is sprouting. A waxy protective coating called the vernix caseosa is forming on his skin to prevent it from pickling in the amniotic fluid.

Weight gain: Will find out tomorrow.  I am thinking 4 pounds.

Maternity clothes: Yep!!  Still trying to use most of my normal shirts that I can still fit in though.

Gender: BOY!!

Movement: I feel more and more every day. He is really active. I can't wait until Skeet can feel him move too!

Sleep: Sleep is getting more difficult but I am tired enough to sleep all day.  I toss and turn a lot and can't seem to stay on my left side.

Symptoms: Round ligament pains, heartburn, and constantly hungry!!  I am starting to develop some sciatic pain as well... not fun!

Cravings: Everything!  I am hungry all the time!

Best moment this week: Hearing from the specialist that our baby boy doesn't look like he has skeletal dysplasia.  And of course, being taken off of bed rest! 

What I am looking forward to: Seeing Peanut again tomorrow.


Lisa said...

Your post brought tears to my eyes because I remember having all those same feelings when I was pregnant with Blake. I loved being pregnant too and after I delivered Blake I actually missed feeling him kick around.

You are going to be such an awesome Mommy. Enjoy these last 21weeks you have with Baby all to yourself.

I'm so happy to hear all the happiness in your life and your posts. I know Blake was able to bring so much happiness back into our lives. Of course, there isn’t a day that goes by that I don't think of Alex, Michael and Faith but Blake has definitely brought happiness back into my life.

The Reluctant Blogger said...

You definitely are not alone in your feelings. I knew that my pregnancy with James would be my last and that it was a miracle that I was pregnant. I wanted to soak up every minute of it. It took quite a while to not miss his kicks and turns in my tummy.

I am so happy that you and Skeet will have a little boy soon to hold on to and love.

Paizley'sMom said...

Congrats on your great news. Your story gives me hope that we will someday soon be where you are at... pregnant again with a healthy baby.
I LOVED being pregnant... every minute of it. Although, Paizley was good to me, she gave me no bad things and all the good. No morning sickness, no bad food adversions, no pains, although I never got to feel her kick. Enjoy it all. It's such a blessing! :)
I can't wait to be there again, even if I have morning sickness so bad I can't leave the bathroom, I will be smiling the whole time without complaint.

Natalie.Rob.Branson said...

I love your updates! I can totally relate to loving being pregnant..besides eating whatever I want and not feeling guilty :), I LOVED and truly cherished every day, every movement! We know all too well that those little kicks might be all we get...so we enjoy every one! I hope you have a great day tomorrow seeing your little guy!