Belly Shot!

This is my 13 week belly shot! I think I look huge for 13 weeks. I don't really know why I am so big... I don't think it is fat really but whatever it is, I love it!!

Skeet tried to get the belly in the shot but the flash just got my really pale face instead!!  You can use your imagination!

We were lucky enough to go to a couple of fun Halloween parties this year!  I was a 1920's flapper and Skeet was a GYN with a kind of gross name so I won't put it here... 

13 weeks!

How far along: 13 weeks

Size of baby:  Around 3 inches (the size of a medium shrimp)

Weight gain:  Not sure, I guess I should start weighing myself more often but I don't own a scale!!  The last time I was weighed I had lost 11 pounds total.

Maternity clothes:  Just belly bands right now but my mom and sister picked out some really cute stuff and now I can't wait to wear it!!

Gender:  Only 5 more weeks until we find out!!

Movement:  Every once and a while I feel a fluttering and though I am sure it is gas, I like to think that I can feel the baby moving.  I think I am a few weeks away from that still.

Sleep:  Still no problem sleeping. I could sleep all day, every day and still sleep through the night. Although I have been trying to sleep on my left side (so I can get in the habit) and that has not been easy!

Symptoms:  The nausea still comes at night and occasionally during the day if I don't eat constantly.  Still tired constantly and am looking forward to getting some energy back.  Boobs still hurt like crazy and are getting huge!  Heartburn is starting to occur more frequently and unfortunately Tums are starting to make me nauseous. 

Cravings:  Nothing has really stood out this last week other than chips and salsa.  I want Mexican food all the time but that doesn't really help with the heartburn.

Best moment this week:  Well it starts with a bad moment.  Yesterday I had some pretty severe pain in my lower stomach and it freaked me out pretty bad.  I called Dr. S and he had me come in right away.  There was no spotting or any reason to believe I was miscarrying but the pain was so bad at times that I couldn't stand up straight or even walk.  It would come and go so I didn't know if it was serious or not.  Dr. S did an ultrasound and saw a small sac of fluid in my cervix but didn't think it was anything to be too concerned with.  His other two suggestions were that I have kidney stones or that I was having really bad gas.  The best part of it all was that I was able to see Peanut for a moment.  I don't know if I can call her Peanut anymore because he's starting to look like a baby!  She was waving her arms and kicking her legs around.  He was so dang cute!!  He wouldn't hold still long enough for them to measure the heartbeat but Dr. S said she looked great! 

What I am looking forward to:  Only 3 more weeks until our next check-up and our BIG ultrasound is scheduled for Dec. 1st.  This one I am looking forward to and dreading at the same time.  I can't wait to feel this baby move!!

12 Weeks! Yay!!

How far along: 12 weeks

Size of baby: Peanut should be about 2 1/2 inches, the size of a large plum

Weight gain: As of last week I have lost 11 lbs.

Maternity clothes: Just belly bands, but the belly is growing... you never know!

Gender: Most think girl but there are a few that are sure it's a boy!  We'll see in another 6 weeks!

Movement: Not yet but I am looking forward to that day!

Sleep: I could sleep all day! Sleeping is not a problem yet and I am trying to enjoy it while I can!

Symptoms: The nausea is letting up a little bit. I still get it in the mornings and at night before bed, but there are a couple of hours in the middle of the day that, if I keep food in my stomach, I feel somewhat normal. My boobs are still swollen and sore and I am tired ALL THE TIME!! 

Cravings: It changes from day to day.  Lately it's been cheeseburgers... you know the good kind from Top Spot or Brads, but in a pinch McDonalds will do.  I also love chips and salsa!!

Best Moment this week: Making it to 12 weeks of course!

What I am looking forward to: Feeling the baby move for the first time.  Also, we go back in 4 weeks for a check up... don't know how I will make it that long!

Ultrasound update

Well Peanut looks great!  Measuring ahead a few days at 11 weeks 4 days and has a very strong heartbeat.  We didn't get to see him move to much but she must have been moving a lot when they were trying to get his heartbeat on the doppler cause all they could hear was her moving around but could never get the heartbeat.  I have to admit that had both mom and dad panicking a little bit.  We are so relieved that our baby looks good.  Dr. S doesn't want to see us back for 5 WHOLE WEEKS!!  I don't know how I am going to make it that long.  I am a nervous wreck every day, I really need to find something to take my mind off of it all.

As for me, I woke up this morning with the worst headache ever and my stomach refused to let me take anything for it, even after Skeet was sweet enough to run to Maverick at 6 a.m. to buy me Tylenol and a Sprite.  I have been able to keep some water and a piece of toast down since then so Dr. S just told me to let him know if the headache comes back or if the vomiting gets worse.  I DO NOT want to go to the hospital so I am taking it easy at home and praying that by tomorrow I feel somewhat normal again so that I can make it to the Wave of Light Memorial! 

Happy Birthday Avery

Wow, has it really been 3 years?  Today is the only day of the year that I really let myself go back and think about everything that happened that day and the days leading up to it.  I can still remember it like it was yesterday and it is still bittersweet.  I am  very emotional this year and I blame it mostly on the hormones but I am also really sad about all we missed out on this year.  3 year olds are so much fun.  Learning all that they can and asking every and any question they can think of.  They are learning about the world and experimenting with everything around them.  I know that she would be a handful and I would be twice as exhausted as I already am because I believe we would still be pregnant.  Mostly because when we were pregnant with Avery we thought we would wait until she was about 3 before we tried again.  I know I would  be okay though.  Moms do it all the time.  I have an amazing friend who has 3 young kids and is pregnant with her 4th... honestly I think she is supermom, I don't know how she does it. 
We had Avery's birthday party last night because my parents left this morning for Philly to visit my sister and the little monster (who I miss tremendously... hint hint).  We did a balloon release at the cemetery with the help of my gorgeous nieces and then had pizza (Midvalley Pizza of course) and a Blizzard cake.  I am so grateful to my family for being so understanding of my need to celebrate Avery's birthday.  It's the one day a year that I make sure that everyone remembers her.  This year my cute 5 year old niece had all kinds of questions about Avery and about the new baby in my tummy.  It was adorable.  I love the innocence of children.  I wish they could stay that way forever! 
We get to celebrate Miss Avery twice this week, on Friday we will be attending a Wave of Light Memorial to observe Infant and Pregnancy Loss Awareness Day.  I am so excited for this event because Mari and Beckie will be performing Avery's song live.  I will finally get to thank them face-to-face and let them know how much it really means to Skeet and I, and our families.  I know the song has touched so many lives and I feel so unworthy of such an amazing gift.  (If you can't make it to the memorial, and you haven't heard the song, there is a small player on the right side of my blog that will play the song if you hit the play button). 

Today I went to the cemetery, lit a candle, and sat and talked to Avery for almost 20 minutes. (I wanted to read her story to her but I couldn't find my hard copy in my mess of a house so I may have to do it later this week or this weekend).  I like to believe that she could hear me and that she knows how much I love her and miss her.  I feel like Skeet and I have missed out on so much because we had to say goodbye to her so soon, but I also know that she is very special and was needed back in Heaven.  We are so proud to be her parents and we can't wait to tell her new brother or sister all about her. 

One thing that has been especially tough is remembering all the details of her birth and the days afterward when we had to put our daughter in the ground.  I have had a hard time with that mostly because I know that I am not strong enough to do that again.  I hope and pray that this child I am carrying is healthy.  Losing another baby may put me over the edge.  Most would think that the fact that I am expecting again would make this birthday easier but it is actually the opposite.  It stresses me out. 

Thank you to all of our family and friends that have expressed their thoughts and prayers to us over the last couple of days.  We are so grateful for all of you and appreciate all you do.  We love you!!  I will update tomorrow after our ultrasound.

11 weeks

How far along: 11 weeks



Size of baby: Peanut should be about 2 inches, the size of a small plum

Weight gain: um.. not sure.. will update tomorrow
Maternity clothes: Just belly bands, hoping the maternity clothes can stay in the closet for at least another month or two.


Gender: Unknown


Movement: Not yet but I am looking forward to that day!

Sleep: I could sleep all day! Sleeping is not a problem yet and I am trying to enjoy it while I can!


Symptoms: The nausea is letting up a little bit.  I still get it in the mornings and at night before bed, but there are a couple of hours in the middle of the day that, if I keep food in my stomach, I feel somewhat normal.  My boobs are still swollen and sore and I am tired ALL THE TIME!!
Cravings: Frozen burritos (I eat them cooked of course), salty foods, fruit, salads, Midvalley Pizza and occasionally chips with my  mother-in-law's yummy homemade salsa


Best Moment this week: Hitting 11 weeks! Only 1 more until the 12 week mark!


What I am looking forward to: Our ultrasound tomorrow and then hitting the 12 week mark! Then it's goodbye Metformin and goodbye Progesterone! It will be nice to only have to take a Prenatal vitamin every day!

Wave of Light Memorial

To all my local friends out there... I know some of you have experienced pregnancy loss and would like to extend this invitation to you.  Please let me know if you would be interested in attending.  We would love for this to be an annual event and it would be great if we could get a good turn out this year.  Plus, Mari and Beckie will be singing Avery's song live!  I can't wait!  We do need to keep count of how many will be attending though, so if you would like to pleast let me know.  Also, if you know of others who might be interested please let them know.  Thank you!! 

10 Weeks

How far along: 10 weeks

Size of baby: Peanut should be about an inch and a half at this point, the size of a prune. 

Weight gain: -8 lbs.
Maternity clothes: None yet but I finally broke out the belly bands!

Gender: Unknown
Movement: Not yet but I am looking forward to that day!

Sleep: I could sleep all day!  Sleeping is not a problem yet and I am trying to enjoy it while I can!

Symptoms: Nausea, headaches, sore boobies (sorry TMI), fatigue, you name it, I've got it!
Cravings: Frozen burritos (I eat them cooked of course), salty foods, fruit, salads.

Best Moment this week: Hitting 10 weeks!  Only 2 more until the 12 week mark!

What I am looking forward to: Our ultrasound next week and then hitting the 12 week mark! Then it's goodbye Metformin and goodbye Progesterone!  It will be nice to only have to take a Prenatal vitamin every day!