Monday, May 10, 2010

Mother's Day

Hi Avery, 
It's Mother's Day again and I can't believe this is the third Mother's Day since you left us.  I remember, so clearly, that first Mother's Day I celebrated while you were still with us, before we knew that you would leave us too soon.  I had so many hopes for you and looked forward to the next year when I would celebrate Mother's Day alongside all of the other mothers and would be showing you off to the world.  I think Mother's Day is as hard for me to get through as your birthday is but for different reasons.  I know I will always be your mom and that does give me comfort.  However, every year I get to watch all of the other moms with their beautiful children and I can only imagine what it would be like to have you here wishing me a Happy Mother's Day too.  It breaks my heart.  I miss you so much.  I still grieve over all that we missed out on because we had to say goodbye.  You are so very special to me sweetie, I will never forget you and I will do my best to make sure that others know who you are and that I am your mom and forever will be. 
It's a bittersweet feeling to have someone wish me a Happy Mother's Day.  I am glad that they acknowledge that even though you aren't here I am still a mom, but it reminds me that you aren't here and how much I miss you. Your daddy was so sweet and gave me a card and a gift.  It means so much to me that he thinks of you and does special things to remind me of that.  We are so lucky to have him.  I hope you know that I love you with all of my heart and I still miss you and think of you every day. 

1 comment:

Lindsay Logic said...

I read this article and thought of you:

I'm glad your husband is a sweetie!