Nothing new

I know I don't post very often anymore. I have been studying hard and trying to get through summer semester so that I can take 2 weeks off before Fall semester starts. I have 2 finals to do before the end of next week and then I am free until August 25. My application for the radiology program at Weber State is due on January 10 so I am trying to get as many classes done as possible before then. I am hoping to have all the general ed requirements done so I will be able to just jump right into the radiology classes next fall.

I do have something exciting to look forward too in the next couple of weeks!! I will be spending the night in Las Vegas and meeting up with some very special friends. Andy & Clare will be visiting in a couple of weeks and I am fortunate enough to be able to meet up with them for dinner and maybe a little site seeing while they are in town. Andy & Clare have a beautiful baby boy angel, Theo, who was born on October 10th. 3 days before Avery. I felt a special bond with Clare from day one and am so thrilled that I have the opportunity to meet her in person seeing that they live in England!

Some more good news... our lawn is IN! We finished up on Tuesday and you would not believe how much grass we have! 4,000 square feet of beautiful, green, heaven! I can hardly wait to get out there and start turning cartwheels... I wonder if I can still do a cartwheel! We are giving it a couple of weeks to grow roots before we start to really enjoy it but I will post pictures soon! I can't believe it is done, I have wanted grass back there for 4 years now. We still have a lot of landscaping to do, I have big plans for the space that isn't grass (which there really isn't a lot of) but that will all have to wait until next year as we have depleted our landscaping budget for the year. A special thanks to my Dad, none of it would have been possible without his help. He did probably more than 50% of the work and we will owe him forever! Also we need to thank my brothers, Skeet's brothers and Skeet's dad and mom. My mom too, she was always there to give her support even if she couldn't participate a lot of the time. I can't wait to have a big BBQ and a game of volleyball or football on our new field!
Our next project is cleaning the carpets and painting the interior walls of the house. All of which I hope to have done by the time school starts up. No rest for me I guess!

It is coming up on Avery's 10 month birthday and I can't believe how the time has flown. There still isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about her and miss her. I still wonder what our lives would be like if she were still with us. I still see pregnant women all around me and yearn to have that special blessing again. I know it is all in God's time but deep in my heart I know I was meant to be a mother and to hold my babies in my arms. I just hope that it is in this lifetime. I pray for the opportunity to raise a child on a daily basis and hope that someday my prayers will be answered. Until then I will hold on to the memories of the few moments I had with my sweet little girl and try to have faith that He has a plan for me.

Pictures from the Mountain

Let us in!!

Pleeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaasessssseeeeee






Jacie giving Ayden hugs

Skeet being a good uncle!

Hmmm ....do I want juice or milk?

Ewww it's pink- boys don't like pink


Me and some of my favorite kids

another favorite



There they are again

Ayden had a tool and decided that Callie's tail needed to be fixed


What a good dog... she just puts up with it!


I am so sad, Charise and Ayden are leaving on Sunday to go back to Philly. I really can't believe the month has gone by so fast. I am going to miss them so much. I may not see them again until December, so it is going to be really hard to let them go.

One Year Ago

One year ago today I got out of bed and put on my cutest maternity outfit I had at the time. It was a blue and black stretchy shirt (to show my growing bump) and some stretchy (very comfy) pants. I grabbed my VHS and CD and headed to work, knowing that in a couple of hours Skeet and I would possibly find out the sex of our first child. I wanted to look my best and I was in a great mood.

One year ago today I was lying on the ultrasound table giggling and watching my baby on the screen when I heard the words "there is something wrong".

One year ago today I heard the words "Lethal Skeletal Dysplasia" for the first time.

One year ago today my world came crashing down around me.

New pictures

Here are some pictures from our family BBQ last Sunday. I have tons more pictures but I will spread them out a little bit. I hope everyone had a great 4th... I did, but I got really -and I mean REALLY- burnt. OUCH!


Ayden and his Papa. He won't let Papa leave him alone for a second.



Dragging Great-Papa Jay around


Jacie and her watermelon face!


Ayden taking a nap... what a sweetie





What a good helper


Messy face!