Thursday, July 17, 2008

One Year Ago

One year ago today I got out of bed and put on my cutest maternity outfit I had at the time. It was a blue and black stretchy shirt (to show my growing bump) and some stretchy (very comfy) pants. I grabbed my VHS and CD and headed to work, knowing that in a couple of hours Skeet and I would possibly find out the sex of our first child. I wanted to look my best and I was in a great mood.

One year ago today I was lying on the ultrasound table giggling and watching my baby on the screen when I heard the words "there is something wrong".

One year ago today I heard the words "Lethal Skeletal Dysplasia" for the first time.

One year ago today my world came crashing down around me.

9 comments:

Amy Jo said...

I think the "firsts" are the hardest. First ultrasound, first birthday, etc. Although that pain never goes away, it seems to get easier as time passes. My thoughts are with you, my friend.

Tonya said...

Candi! I agress with Amy Jo, the first's have got to be hard. Know you have lots of people who are thinking about and loving you!

Clare Dungey said...

I can completely relate to that day. I was cleaning the inside of my kitchen cupboards, waiting for Andy to pick me up and take me for my scan. I was incredibly excited and making lots of plans for our little baby. Andy arrived early so I figured I'd finish the cupboards later when I got back....I never did finish cleaning the cupboards.

Michele said...

Wow, I don't even know what to say, Candi! I'm so sorry! But on a brighter note....I FOUND YOU!!! Come check out my blog sometime. I'm new at it so it's dumb, but I'm still proud of myself! :)

Michele said...

send me your email address so I can invite you to view my blog!!
chele_jbnta@msn.com

Jennifer said...

Still think about you and Skeet and Avery every day. All my love to you all.

Jenny said...

Hey, I'm glad you guys came down to visit last night, it was fun. I was sorry I didn't get to talk to you more. I check in on your blog regularly, and have been so impressed with you and how you have dealt with your loss. I can't even imagine how hard all those firsts are and will continue to be. You are incredible and I hope to get to know you better. Anyway, I hope you don't mind me lurking! Talk to you soon. -Jenny

Lora said...

Candi, I found your blog through my daughter's (Lydia's mommy). My heart goes out to you. It was right around this time last year that Amy had almost the same experience. I'll never forget the phone call from her on the way home from her ultrasound, after learning Lydia had anencephaly. I thought my heart would break right along with Amy's. I just read your story and I'm crying (again!). Your daughter is preciously (is that a word?)beautiful!!

Lora said...

Candi, I found your blog through my daughter's (Lydia's mommy). My heart goes out to you. It was right around this time last year that Amy had almost the same experience. I'll never forget the phone call from her on the way home from her ultrasound, after learning Lydia had anencephaly. I thought my heart would break right along with Amy's. I just read your story and I'm crying (again!). Your daughter is preciously (is that a word?)beautiful!!