Thursday, July 31, 2008

Nothing new

I know I don't post very often anymore. I have been studying hard and trying to get through summer semester so that I can take 2 weeks off before Fall semester starts. I have 2 finals to do before the end of next week and then I am free until August 25. My application for the radiology program at Weber State is due on January 10 so I am trying to get as many classes done as possible before then. I am hoping to have all the general ed requirements done so I will be able to just jump right into the radiology classes next fall.

I do have something exciting to look forward too in the next couple of weeks!! I will be spending the night in Las Vegas and meeting up with some very special friends. Andy & Clare will be visiting in a couple of weeks and I am fortunate enough to be able to meet up with them for dinner and maybe a little site seeing while they are in town. Andy & Clare have a beautiful baby boy angel, Theo, who was born on October 10th. 3 days before Avery. I felt a special bond with Clare from day one and am so thrilled that I have the opportunity to meet her in person seeing that they live in England!

Some more good news... our lawn is IN! We finished up on Tuesday and you would not believe how much grass we have! 4,000 square feet of beautiful, green, heaven! I can hardly wait to get out there and start turning cartwheels... I wonder if I can still do a cartwheel! We are giving it a couple of weeks to grow roots before we start to really enjoy it but I will post pictures soon! I can't believe it is done, I have wanted grass back there for 4 years now. We still have a lot of landscaping to do, I have big plans for the space that isn't grass (which there really isn't a lot of) but that will all have to wait until next year as we have depleted our landscaping budget for the year. A special thanks to my Dad, none of it would have been possible without his help. He did probably more than 50% of the work and we will owe him forever! Also we need to thank my brothers, Skeet's brothers and Skeet's dad and mom. My mom too, she was always there to give her support even if she couldn't participate a lot of the time. I can't wait to have a big BBQ and a game of volleyball or football on our new field!
Our next project is cleaning the carpets and painting the interior walls of the house. All of which I hope to have done by the time school starts up. No rest for me I guess!

It is coming up on Avery's 10 month birthday and I can't believe how the time has flown. There still isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about her and miss her. I still wonder what our lives would be like if she were still with us. I still see pregnant women all around me and yearn to have that special blessing again. I know it is all in God's time but deep in my heart I know I was meant to be a mother and to hold my babies in my arms. I just hope that it is in this lifetime. I pray for the opportunity to raise a child on a daily basis and hope that someday my prayers will be answered. Until then I will hold on to the memories of the few moments I had with my sweet little girl and try to have faith that He has a plan for me.


Clare Dungey said...

I can't wait to see you Candi! It's amazing how God turns tragic circumstances into blessings! If it wasn't for the sadness of losing our babies we would never have met, become friends and had the joy of meeting up.

I also miss Theo every day but know that he has enriched my life with his short little life. I love him even more for the fact that he has helped me find special new friends.

See you in Vegas!!

Jennifer said...

How exciting that you guys are meeting! I bet Avery and Theo are up in heaven doing the happy dance that their moms and dads are meeting and cementing their special bond! Have lots of fun and don't gamble away your life savings!

Tina said...

Maybe when you go to Vegas you could put a few coins in the slot and replenish your landscaping fund. Just kidding! Have fun, what a special meeting that will be.

Amy Jo said...

Have a blast in Vegas. I am sure Avery and Theo are thrilled that their special parents have become special friends. Safe Trip!

Lane said...

I can't wait to see your new yard! PS - you're my hero if you can still do a cartwheel. I tried a few months ago and about killed myself.

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honey1_30us said...

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Your friend,


BRYAN'S YAYA said...

How cool that we will have our own radiologist to consult! I'm glad to hear that although it is still very difficult, you are moving forward. Life goes on - but our children are in our hearts forever. Say Hi to Clare and Andy. How awesome this circle has become.

YaYa to Bryan

Tonya said...

Candi, you, Clare and Andy are going to have a spectaular time!! Share the pics when you get them!!!