Tuesday, March 29, 2011

35 Weeks

Every week, when I do my posts, I am reminded how incredibly blessed I am.  35 weeks, I just can't believe it.  I am getting pretty big and so is my little man.  Sometimes I will lift my shirt up and look at my ever growing belly in the mirror and I still cannot believe that this is happening for us... finally!!  Honestly, and I don't mean to be a downer, but I still feel like it isn't real and that any minute it will be taken from me.  On the outside I put on a pretty good front.  I am able to show the excitement and joy that I am feeling and I am able to hide the fear and anxiety that I feel right along with it.  Lately though, it's become harder for me to push the bad feelings aside.  I can't comprehend that I could possibly deserve to be this happy.  Or, that I deserve to be blessed with this sweet little boy.  Don't get me wrong. I am still over-the-moon, happy about the fact that we are expecting and that this little boy could arrive anytime now (although he and I have an understanding... he's going to wait until 37 weeks at least), it is just when I really stop to think about it, I wonder what is going to go wrong to balance it all out.  It sounds terrible, I know, but I think it comes from experiencing the worst pain anyone could ever imagine... losing a child.  I think that only those who have experienced it, know what I mean.    Okay, I am really done being the Debby Downer now, I just needed to get that out.

At my appointment last week Dr. S was very pleased!  Sawyer is doing great and so am I!  I am about a centimeter and a half dilated and 50 % effaced.  This week we will do our last progesterone injection and Dr. S has told me that as of 36 weeks I can stop taking the nifedipine.  I haven't taken it for a while though and seem to be doing okay. I have noticed an increase in Braxton Hicks contractions but they are very irregular so they are nothing to worry about at this point.  I will go back to see Dr. S at 36 weeks and after that we will do weekly appointments.  Right now we are just watching for signs of high blood pressure.  Because I got preeclampsia pretty badly after Avery was born, I have a 30% chance of getting preeclampsia again, whether it be before or after.  So I am just keeping an eye out for the warning signs and praying that I don't turn into the Marshmallow Man again!


How far along: 35 Weeks



Size of baby: At about 20 inches and five and a half pounds (but with about five more weeks to grow), most of your baby's growth over the next month or so before you meet will be in weight (with a gain of anywhere from one pound to several), not height (baby's pretty much reached the in utero limit in that department). Accordingly, fat continues to accumulate at a rapid pace these days (on baby, not just on your hips). Back in the middle of your pregnancy, your baby's weight was made up of only two percent fat; now at 35 weeks pregnant, that percentage has soared to closer to 15 percent (and will increase to 30 percent at term). Which means your baby's once skinny arms and legs are now quite plump…and irresistibly, squeezably soft.



 


Weight gain: Ugh... 30+ pounds!!






Maternity clothes: Don't even get me started... it takes me 30 minutes just to find something to wear that still fits!  My belly likes to hang out of the bottom of even my maternity shirts these days!




Gender: BOY!!






Movement: I can tell that this little guy is getting stronger by the day.  Some days I think he is trying to escape.  I wish that I could some how capture it so that I can always remember how amazing it feels when he moves.






Sleep: It is getting harder and harder to sleep through the night but I am sure my body is just preparing me for what is to come. I can't get comfortable and have been starting to get up 2 or 3 times a night to pee. I have been lucky most of this pregnancy because I have been able to go most nights without getting up but I think with him getting so big, and maybe dropping or starting to, my bladder just can't handle the pressure.





Symptoms: Back pain, feet and hands swelling, heartburn, headaches, braxton hicks, occasional cramping, gas, constipation, itchy skin, acne (bad acne), ... the list goes on and on but to be honest... I LOVE IT!!






Cravings: Food!!  I never feel full these days!  I have heard that because the baby is so big, your stomach is supposed to get full faster, but you have to eat more frequently.  This has not been a problem for me.  I could probably eat all day every day and still not feel satisfied.  Although, because of my weight gain, I am trying to not fill the void. 





Best moment this week: Nothing too exciting has happened this week.  I did pack my hospital bag, although I don't anticipate having to use it for another few weeks.  Having my appointment go well was a huge relief and I am just enjoying the time I have left in this pregnancy.  I am trying to cherish it all... good and bad... because I know I will miss it when it's over.




What I am looking forward to: I am finally getting my maternity pictures taken this week!!!  Also, we will be going to Prenatal class #3 and I think Skeet will actually be able to go with this time!!  I haven't learned much yet, because we have been through a delivery before, but it's been a good refresher course and once they start getting into what to do after you take the baby home, I think we will be glad we took the class.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Room and Belly

32 weeks





I have had requests for pics of Sawyer's room as well as my belly as of late. So the wait is over.. here you go!  His room is not exactly like I want it but I think it will have to do for now... I have more plans for it but Skeet told me to stop so I stopped!

34 Weeks!!

How far along: 34 Weeks! I am so glad we have made it to this point!! 






Size of baby: Your baby could be as tall as 20 inches  right now and about five pounds.





Weight gain: Ugh... 27 pounds!!





Maternity clothes:  If I didn't have only 6 weeks left I might be shopping for a bigger size in maternity clothes.  I don't think it's worth it though at this point so I am trying to make do with what I have!!  Surprisingly, I still fit in some of my regular shirts!




Gender: BOY!!





Movement: My entire family has been enjoying watching my belly dance around on it's own!  He moves a lot and is getting so strong!!  I seriously love every second of it and wish that I could somehow remember that feeling forever. 





Sleep: It is getting harder and harder to sleep through the night but I am sure my body is just preparing me for what is to come.  I can't get comfortable and have been starting to get up 2 or 3 times a night to pee.  I have been lucky most of this pregnancy because I have been able to go most nights without getting up but I think with him getting so big, and maybe dropping or starting to, my bladder just can't handle the pressure.




Symptoms: Back pain, feet and hands swelling, heartburn, headaches, braxton hicks, occasional cramping, gas, constipation, itchy skin, acne (bad acne), ... the list goes on and on but to be honest... I LOVE IT!!





Cravings: I still love everything for the most part!  Broccoli has not been my friend this pregnancy but I force myself to eat it occasionally, just for Sawyer's sake.  I crave anything and everything sweet and then occasionally I will crave a salad or something healthy... but not very often!!   No wonder I have gained as much as I have!





Best moment this week: I attended my first childbirth class, that was easier than I thought but then again I didn't learn anything that I didn't already know from past experience.  Also, I was able to see my little monkey during our ultrasound and let me tell you, he is a cutie!  Unfortunately he didn't cooperate so we didn't get face shots.  My sister would agree though, he's gonna be a handsome little guy!  The best news was that he is healthy and growing very well... maybe too well! ;)




What I am looking forward to: Childbirth class #2 and we have an appt. with Dr. S on Thursday.  I am so happy that we have made it to 34 weeks and so from now on, we can deliver in Cedar, hopefully with Dr. S.  I know that if Sawyer came now he would probably have to stay in the hospital for a week or two but he would most likely be just fine.  I don't see that happening though. I think this little boy is going to surprise us all and stay put for a few more weeks.  As excited as I am to finally meet our miracle, I am not in a hurry for him to arrive.  I would like him to be fully cooked, and I want to cherish what I have left of this pregnancy, because I know I will miss it when it's over.  It will be so bittersweet because I will be so happy that I am finally holding my baby but I will miss that special bond that only I have with him. We tried for so long to get pregnant and it went by so fast!!  I think Skeet is starting to realize how close it all is to happening and he is starting to panic a little bit too!  I can't believe our lives will be permanently changed in just a few short weeks!!

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Big Boy

The ultrasound went well today!! He looks very healthy and is weighing in at around 4 pounds 12 ounces.  If he keeps going at this rate and we go full term he may be around 8 or 9 pounds!!  That's a big boy!!  The most important part though, is that he looks healthy!  I feel so blessed!!  Oh and despite what my wacky dreams have been telling me, he is still very much a boy! 

33 Weeks - (only 49 days to go!!)

How far along: 33 Weeks!





Size of baby: This week your baby may be anywhere between 17 to 19 inches in length and weigh more than four and a half pounds. At this stage in fetal development, your baby could grow a full inch more this week alone — especially if he or she has been on the shorter side. Weight gain can range from a third more growth to a full doubling before the big debut.





Weight gain: Ugh... 25 pounds!! 




Maternity clothes: Mostly. Some of my longer shirts still fit and may until I deliver! Although I do seem to be growing out of some of my maternity clothes... I wish it would get warm already so I could live in my gauchos and flip flops!





Gender: BOY!!




Movement: Wow! Have we been feeling a lot of movement... and seeing it too! It seems as though he is trying to get out! He pushes and stretches constantly and sometimes it hurts! I love it so much! I know I am going to miss that most!



Sleep: Oh I am so tired! It has become very hard to get comfortable and stay comfortable. It has also become hard to breathe while I am lying down so I have to prop myself up on a lot of pillows! I won't lie, sleep is one of my favorite things in the world, but I am still very happy to be pregnant and I will deal with this minor inconvenience. I know it's only going to get worse so I sleep when and where I can!




Symptoms: Back pain, feet and hands swelling, heartburn, headaches, braxton hicks, occasional cramping, gas, constipation, itchy skin, acne (bad acne), ... the list goes on and on but to be honest... I LOVE IT!!





Cravings: My sister-in-law made these delicious brownies this weekend... I was craving them so I got the recipe and made some myself... yea, not even close!  I wonder if it's just cause someone else made them that I loved them so much.  They were delish!





Best moment this week: Well Dr S said that everything looked great at our last appt.  My cervix is still high and posterior which he says is a good thing!  No further dilation this week and he feels comfortable going another 2 weeks before seeing me again.  I really haven't felt a whole lot of contractions lately which makes me really happy!  This little boy may just go the full 40 weeks (fingers crossed!)




What I am looking forward to: We are having an ultrasound today!!  I get to see my little monkey and I can't wait! Unfortunately, Skeet is out of town and won't be there.  But my sister is in town and since she won't be here when Sawyer makes his debut, she will be joining me for the show today.  I hope we get some good shots of him and I cannot wait to see how much he has grown.  It must be a lot cause my belly is getting huge!!  Also, we start our childbirth classes this week... Skeet won't be here for the first one but my mom has agreed to go with me even though it's her birthday that day.  She is the best mom ever!! 

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

32 Weeks

As of 3:17 a.m. today, I am more pregnant than I have ever been.  Avery was born at exactly 32 weeks and I remember that day like it was yesterday.  Today has been surreal.  Thinking back on our little girl, and looking forward to our little boy.  I can't believe we have made it this far.  Only 2 more weeks and we will be able to deliver in Cedar City.  When we had Avery, we had to get special permission from a couple of different specialists up in Salt Lake first.  They had to look at her ultrasounds and determine whether or not her condition was 100% lethal.  If there was any chance that she could survive, they would have insisted that we deliver in St. George or at another hospital with a higher level NICU.  We were able to get the okay to deliver in Cedar the day my water broke.  Hearing them tell me that 2 different specialists had agreed that my daughter was definitely going to die, well that wasn't easy to hear but we were glad that Dr. S would be able to deliver her. (He is the reason we have such great pictures too.  He stayed to take them and then photoshopped each one)  He has been with us through our entire journey and it just wouldn't be right if he couldn't deliver Sawyer too.  I haven't told him this yet but I am going to throw a mighty large fit if I go into labor on a weekend when he isn't on call.  I think I'd better warn him about that soon!! 


How far along: 32 Weeks!






Size of baby: This week your baby weighs almost four pounds and could be up to 19 inches long. And though that's a head-to-toe length, your baby is actually back to a curled-up position (you try standing up in those cramped quarters!). At 32 weeks pregnant, you're likely feeling tapping and squirming (yea that's an understatement) instead of your baby's signature rocking and rolling. That's because, while comfy, your baby is a bit tight for exercise space right now. Your baby has also probably settled into the head-down, bottoms-up position in your pelvis in preparation for birth.




Weight gain: 22 pounds. (that's a guess.. I don't get weighed until Thursday and it's been 2 weeks!)





Maternity clothes: Mostly. Some of my longer shirts still fit and may until I deliver!  Although I do seem to be growing out of some of my maternity clothes... I wish it would get warm already so I could live in my gauchos and flip flops!





Gender: BOY!!





Movement: Wow! Have we been feeling a lot of movement... and seeing it too!  It seems as though he is trying to get out! He pushes and stretches constantly and sometimes it hurts!  Especially when he decides to punch, or push down on, my cervix.  Owee!



Sleep: Oh I am so tired! It has become very hard to get comfortable and stay comfortable.  It has also become hard to breathe while I am lying down so I have to prop myself up on a lot of pillows!  I won't lie, sleep is one of my favorite things in the world, but I am still very happy to be pregnant and I will deal with this minor inconvenience.  I know it's only going to get worse so I sleep when and where I can!




Symptoms: Back pain, feet and hands swelling, heartburn, headaches, braxton hicks, occasional cramping, gas, constipation, itchy skin, acne (bad acne), ... the list goes on and on but to be honest... I LOVE IT!!





Cravings: Everything!  Pastry Pub salads have been at the top of the list as well as the Heads or Tails Oreos.. Yummy!





Best moment this week: We've almost gotten through 2 weeks without seeing Dr. S (and we only called once).  That is a huge deal for me!!  It also seems that Sawyer is much more active and I have loved feeling him move around. 




What I am looking forward to: Seeing how things are going this week at my appt. with Dr. S.  I am curious to see if I have dilated any more ( I have been feeling "contractions" and have had to take the evil drug a few times).  I am hoping Dr. S will tell me that we still have a ways to go because Skeet will be leaving town for a few days and I don't want him to be gone and me go into labor! That would suck!  Plus, I am going to sign up for our childbirth classes this week!  Skeet will miss the first one unfortunately, but I am curious to see how he does with them! I think it will be a reality check for both of us! (yes I know we have done child birth before, but we haven't done the "taking the child home" part so we are hoping for some help with that). 

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

31 Weeks

I think the next couple of weeks are going to be hard, but incredible for me at the same time.  I was 31 weeks and 3 days pregnant when I went into labor for the first time with Avery.  We don't know if I went into labor because she was sick or because my body had had enough with being pregnant.  I do remember that my body started to get puffy the weekend before that... and this morning I woke up to puffy fingers and pants that were much tighter on my thighs than they were last week.  (Last time, I had to wear Skeet's pants because I couldn't fit in any of my maternity clothes... not even the baggy ones and it was all because of swelling).  I have faith that everything is going to be okay with Sawyer but I can't help but think back to my last 31 week experience.  I don't have an appointment with Dr. S this week, we are going to try going two weeks and see how it goes.  I will however, be listening to my body very closely and taking every precaution.  If I end up in labor and delivery over a stupid pain, I wouldn't be surprised.  I really want Sawyer to stay put until at least 37 weeks.  The further we get into this pregnancy the higher that number gets!  I am ready to meet him, definitely, but I am not ready to not be pregnant anymore... I also want him to be as healthy as possible when he does come, so no preemie baby for us!!  We are all ready though, in case he comes early.  His nursery is put together, his clothes and blankets are washed, we have huge stockpiles of diapers and wipes and although we haven't done our childbirth classes yet, I think we could handle it without them.  But he still needs to wait... I am still nesting and there is still a lot of my house that isn't clean enough, according to me, so I have a lot I still want to do.  Plus, we can't deliver in Cedar until 34 weeks and I REFUSE to deliver anywhere else!! At my last appointment with Dr. S I was dilated to just about 1 cm.  Nothing to freak out about and Dr. S wasn't too concerned so I hope it doesn't progress.
 Anyway... here is my update...

How far along: 31 Weeks!




Size of baby: As far as growth goes, your baby's still on a roll, measuring an impressive 18 inches and weighing in at more than three pounds. At 31 weeks pregnant, you can still expect your baby to gain at least three to five pounds, possibly more, before you two meet.


Weight gain: 20 pounds.




Maternity clothes: Mostly. I can still get away with a few of my regular shirts but my belly is starting to hang out of the bottom now!!




Gender: BOY!!




Movement: I LOVE to watch my stomach move!  It is the most amazing feeling and something I never got to see when pregnant with Avery.  I get sad when he is not moving because I love feeling it so much.  I am sure when he comes I will be thankful for those quiet periods but right now I am just enjoying every second!



Sleep: Sleep is definitely more difficult, but it's not from a lack of trying. I am tired enough to sleep 10-12 hours a night but am lucky to get in 5 or 6. Guess I had better get used to it!




Symptoms: Back pain, feet and hands swelling, heartburn, headaches, braxton hicks, occasional cramping, gas, constipation, itchy skin... the list goes on and on but to be honest... I LOVE IT!!




Cravings: Hmm... this week I really want mexican food.  I haven't gotten it yet because I want the good stuff and Skeet has been sick.  I hope he gets better soon cause I really want some yummy food!



Best moment this week: Nothing much has happened this week but I guess I could put that Dr. S and I agreed to take a 2 week break from each other and see how it goes.  After seeing him every week for the last couple of months, I am afraid that the withdrawls might kick in around Friday.  I am just hoping the next week and a half are uneventful and when I see him next week everything looks good! 



What I am looking forward to: Skeet feeling better, for one.  I hope to spend as much time with my sister and my nephew as I can too.  They will be leaving before I know it and I always regret not spending more time with them while they are here.  I have felt awful that I haven't been able to play with him like I normally do so I need to come up with some ideas of fun things he and I can do together that don't require a lot of running around!
Also, now that the furniture is where I want it in the nursery, my sis is going to come and help me finish decorating! I can't wait for it to be done so I can post pictures!  My little monkey is so spoiled!