The Picture Says It All...

This photo shoot didn't go exactly how I planned. I wanted him to hold the paper while I shot a quick picture but every time I handed it to him he immediately wadded it up.  So here it is... you can tell how excited he is that sometime in mid-September he is going to have a new little brother or sister. 

We are thrilled of course!  It wasn't planned but it was a very happy surprise!  I am so very grateful because I honestly didn't think it would be that easy and I was really scared that it wouldn't happen at all.  I feel so blessed to have Avery and Sawyer and I knew that I shouldn't push it by asking for anything more but the Lord always has a different plan for us than we have for ourselves. We have no control and the sooner we accept that... the sooner we can learn to appreciate what we have been given and look forward to what is in store. 

I have been so hesitant to do this post.  First of all because it is still early.  We are only nine weeks along but I think we were only six when we announced with Sawyer.  Second, I know of so many people who have been praying for years for their first, or second baby and it just hasn't happened yet.  I feel so guilty that I have been so blessed once again to get pregnant without even trying.  I used to get so upset when I would hear about women like me.  I was so envious that they could get pregnant just by just having their husband look at them a certain way.  Now I am one of those women I always envied (resented) and I feel awful!  I shouldn't. I know that I shouldn't.  It was a very long road to get where we are at today. We went through so much heartache and pain but through it all we didn't give up and I believe that is why we are so blessed now.  But I can't help feel guilty and undeserving of so many blessings.  So I am sorry to anyone that might read this and feel sad.  I have been there, I know how it feels and I know there's never an easy way to find out this kind of news.  I also want you to know that I don't take a minute of it for granted. I know how very lucky I am, how blessed I am, and I thank my Heavenly Father every day for giving me this opportunity to be a mother to such amazing children.  I will do my best to remember that every day of the rest of my life too.  I never want to forget how much I longed for my children and how much joy they bring me every day. 

As far as finding out about this pregnancy goes... trust me, I was way more shocked than you!  I had no idea it was coming.  When I took that test I was just ruling it out before I went to the doctor.  My mom kept telling me to take a test and after the 5th time I finally did it so she would leave me alone.  I almost fainted when it turned positive immediately.  We were only going to wait until Sawyer was a year or maybe a few months older than that before we actively started trying again but we weren't doing all that well at preventing either - obviously. We never thought it would be that easy though.  Both Skeet and I could not believe it.  Actually, I didn't really start believing it until my appointment yesterday when I saw that cute, 1 inch long, gummy bear bouncing around and waving it's arms.  I was going to wait a little bit longer before announcing it to the world but because I didn't have much time to get my body back to normal after having Sawyer, I am already showing quite a bit and I am sure most people could guess my secret if they saw me at WalMart. 

Dr. Sanders seems thrilled for us too.  When I first saw him after the positive test he said "Wow, when that Ovarian Diathermy works, it really works!!" He's not kidding!!  Now I have him to thank (partially) for 2 miracles!!  We may have been able to do it without him but I doubt it! 

So there it is, our secret is out and we couldn't be happier!