Waiting!!

I am so not good at waiting for something that I am really excited for.  I still can't sleep in on Christmas morning, I suffer through the days leading up to a big event or vacation, and waiting for this little boy to arrive is no exception.   At my appointment today we were told that I am now dilated to a 4, still 80 % effaced and it could be any day... or it could be another couple of weeks!  Dr. S said that at this point it's not my cervix that is a concern (he believes the delivery will be smooth and go wonderfully.. whew, nice to hear), the concern is whether or not this baby is ready to come into this world.  He said that at our high altitude, sometimes babies are just not ready at 37 weeks.  So, we wait.  He did do a quick ultrasound to measure the fluid levels and the levels look great.  My blood pressure looks great.  Sawyer looks great!!  He even checked the location of the cord for me, because it has been something I have been stressing about.  The cord is great and no where near his head or neck.  He is still head down although he is facing the wrong way... but that doesn't really matter until I am in labor. 

I was hooked up to the NST machine for about an hour and had only 3 big contractions (really big... ouch!) and a whole bunch of small ones, none of which had any kind of pattern.  So we wait...

Another concern is that Dr. S will be going out of town for 3 days next week starting on Thursday.  This makes me worry.  It is a huge deal to me that Dr. S delivers Sawyer.  If it weren't for Dr. S, Sawyer probably wouldn't exist.  It was Dr. S that listened to me when I asked about Ovarian Diathermy.  It was Dr. S that ordered the equipment necessary to do the Ovarian Diathermy.  It was Dr. S that made it possible for us to even do the surgery and it was Dr. S that supported us and cheered us on as we waited month after month to see if the surgery did what it was supposed to do.  Dr. S was a huge part of Averys' delivery too.  We wouldn't have all the amazing pictures of her and her birthday, if it weren't for him.  He has been our doctor throughout our entire infertility journey.  All 6 years of it.  Most importantly, he took my word for it when I told him I thought there was something wrong with me and instead of making us try for a year, he ran tests right away.  He has been the most amazing doctor and I don't think we could EVER have found anyone better.  We feel so lucky to have someone like him on our side fighting for us every step of the way.  He has saved my life and both of my children's lives at some point and I know he would have done anything to save Avery again, if he could have.  I hope you can tell why it is so important to me that it is Dr. S that hands Sawyer to me for the first time.  So knowing that he will be out of town for 3 whole days, this close to our due date, makes me a little crazy.  I want Sawyer to be ready and I want him to come before Thursday, because those 3 days would be complete torture for me with Dr. S gone!!  I don't really have my heart set on anything as far as this delivery goes... I am okay with anything that might come along, EXCEPT Dr. S not being there!!! 

This weekend Skeet will be celebrating his 36th birthday and I can't think of a better gift than a son. So it would be great if he came this weekend, but I won't hold my breath!!  Come on baby boy... anytime you are ready... I am ready for you!!