An Update

I guess I should post a little update since it's coming on a month since my last post.  This pregnancy is still going smoothly for the most part.  I have a hard time posting about it because I still feel like if some of my friends out there are still reading (which I doubt anyone really is anymore), well I don't want to be rubbing this pregnancy in any one's face.  However, because I have been printing these posts out in book form, and because my children might one day want to read them.  I was this child to have just as much as Sawyer has to read about.  Well almost as much.  Instead of the weekly posts I might do every 2 weeks or every month.  But I'll try to get all of the important stuff in there, including the belly shots. 

I am now 13 weeks along.  One more week left until my 2nd trimester!! This pregnancy is really flying by.  It's easier this time around because I have Sawyer to distract me, so I don't stress quite as much as I did when I was carrying him.  When I do let myself think about it, it's like instant stress and worry.  But it's not just that... I am driving myself crazy with wondering whether this baby is a boy or a girl.  I just want to know what to plan for!  I also want to know if I can give all of my boy stuff to my sister-in-law or if I need to hold on to it.  I pray every night that this baby is healthy.  I don't care what anyone says, after you have had a loss, and then a healthy baby, the worry doesn't go away.  It's still there, it's just as bad with the 3rd child as it was with the 2nd.  I know that we were able to have a healthy, living child and that is a huge relief but that doesn't guarantee that our next will be the same.  I can hardly wait until that ultrasound when we can look at this baby's arms and legs and see that they are measuring right on.  That his/her ribcage is perfect and his/her lungs are able to develop properly.  It's just so scary not knowing!! And again, just like with Sawyer, I find myself having a hard time planning for this baby.  Once I know that there is a good chance he/she will be okay, then I will let myself get into planning mode.  Until then I will try to keep myself distracted or drive myself nuts wondering.

I really do want to enjoy this pregnancy as much as I possibly can.  According to Skeet, this is our last baby so I want to remember everything.  Even how awful the morning sickness has been.  I don't really want to stop, especially now that we know we can get pregnant and that we have such adorable babies... it seems a shame to put an end to that, but Skeet and I have argued our entire married life about this issue.  He wanted 2 kids, I wanted 3.  Looks like I win so I shouldn't complain!! 

Here is my update...

How far along:13 weeks.

How my baby is growing: Fingerprints have formed on your baby's tiny fingertips, her veins and organs are clearly visible through her still-thin skin, and her body is starting to catch up with her head — which makes up just a third of her body size now. If you're having a girl, she now has more than 2 million eggs in her ovaries. Your baby is almost 3 inches long (the size of a medium shrimp) and weighs nearly an ounce.


Weight gain: 5 pounds.


Maternity clothes: You betcha!!  I pulled them out last weekend and as much as I hate them, I am officially in maternity pants.  I am still trying make do with my normal shirts but I am growing so differently this time and I really just look huge when I try to wear any of my regular clothes.


Gender: Who knows?  Skeet is thinking boy...


Movement: Not yet.  Occasionally I think I feel something but then I have to remind myself that it's still early.


Sleep: Can't get enough.  Especially because Sawyer isn't sleeping well lately.  I get up twice with him before I am up for the day.  So to say I am exhausted is an understatement.


Symptoms: Nausea, cramping, headaches, nausea, fatigue, sleepiness, nausea, tiredness!!


Cravings: It changes day to day.  Nothing has really stood out.  I just need to have something in my stomach at all times.  Things I can't eat include cooked veggies (broccoli, carrots, cauliflower, you name it), steak, anything diet (the aftertaste gets me) and that includes sugar free gum (sorry to anyone who has had to suffer from my bad breath)


Best moment lately:Nothing really big has happened this week.  Last week I was able to see the baby for a minute and it looked great!!


What I am looking forward to:We have an appointment in 2 weeks.  I doubt we'll get to find out what it is but you can bet I'll be asking Dr. S to take a look!!